Been a weird couple of weeks. I’m still doing well overall, but I have hit the first of what I’m told will be “a few” plateaus.
Last week, at my weigh in I gained 1 pound. That just threw me for a loop. It really did affect me the rest of the week. The Saturday night before, I had my first official splurge and had some pretzels at poker night. Even with overestimating the calories, I was only at like 1200 for the day. So with that, and the fact I eat 800-900 daily, I was a mix of frustrated, pissed off, and depressed. My RD said it was probably retaining water after all that salt, but still. This program is overall easier than I thought it would be, but make no mistake, it is REALLY effing hard sometimes. And the last 2 weeks have been the worst 
This week, I lost 3lbs. I know I should be happier about it than I am. I figure with the gain of the week before, I’ve lost an average of 1lb a week these last 2 weeks. When considering I’ve lost about an average of 4lbs a week, it feels frustrating. I know that most peoe don’t lost that much regularly but most people also don’t do a medically supervised program or research study like I am.
All in all, I’ve lost 30.1lbs as of my weigh in last night. Day 1 was September 20, so it is still just under 2 months. I am happy about it even though I don’t sound like it right now.
I am going to do an experiment of sorts this weekend. I just found out yesterday that Dave and I will be going to Toronto for 6 days in a couple of weeks. I am SO excited! But, I also know that I’ll basically be off this. I mean I’ll bring my travel blender and make shakes for breakfast and snacks every day…but I won’t have a fridge in our hotel room so it’s not like I can cook almost a weeks worth of food and keep it fresh there. I talked to my RD and she said you know, try to eat lots of salad and veggies and stuff, but let’s get real – I’ll probably have something less healthy. My experiences with Tim Horton’s have been less than stellar (4 different locations in 3 different cities, all of them meh) so I’m thinking it’ll be something like pasta or something. OMG, bread too! 
So anyway, about my experiment: so when I had those pretzels last week, I definitely had more than a serving but not like the whole bag (or even close to half). They were flavoured, so greasy AND salty. While they tasted good in my mouth, I started feeling bad within 30 minutes and my body and stomach were telling me for TWO DAYS how much it did not appreciate those. Ugh, so not worth it! Which really, is a good thing to know and remember 
My wonderful husband and I will be out and about on Saturday, mixing errands with fun stuff. I have decided I’m going to eat some pizza. I’m planning for it – going to make sure to stick to my plan the rest of the day (one splurge doesn’t mean the whole day is shot!) and try to eat slow. What I want to see is, when it is something that is not simply junk (I eat my pizza very sparse), how will I feel? Because again, with the trip in a few weeks, I’d like to get an idea what it may feel like now so I know my new limits, instead of finding out the hard way whilst on vacation, if you know what I’m saying.
Anyway, I know I’m doing well but I admit I’m in a bit of a funk. I’m trying to figure out how to get out of it and recognize my successes. I know “on paper” what they are but I’m just not FEELING it right now
